I’m so intoxicated,
I’m drunk on the fumes of your love,
I’m blind for all the reasons to run,
I’m deaf for all the words the people close to me speak,
I’m drunk on an non existing passion,
On a game of lust and possession,
I’m so damaged I will never be able to sober up. The pain I felt had crushed me completely, I had forgotten how to live.
I’m broken inside, I’m hurt to the deepest parts of my soul. My life has ended and hell had began.
And still I’m thirsty for more, more of the poison you spread in me, deep in the paths of my once pumping and rushing blood. Giving me pain greater than any drug to love and not to be loved in return.
The moment before sunrise,
The dark and light embrace,
The vision of the moment only few can bare to take,
The pureness of the selected time,
The burden of he flames and the desire of the matter to match with something known and understood,
The brief moment of surprise,
The time of lost and strength,
The moment before the dawn begins and the night ends
I wonder what is wrong ,
I’m here all I own is yours, my heart, my soul, my everything, everything I own and all I am and will be.
I wonder what is wrong,
I’m giving you my all, my dreams, my hope I am sacrificing all my hours, all my minutes, all my sleep.
I wonder what is wrong,
I want to comfort you, to love you, to protect you, to be only yours like I never been before, and all I get is empty lines and voiceless speech.
I wonder where I’m wrong,
Am I not loving you enough, or maybe just too much. Am I to you as who you are to me, do you dream of me.
I wonder where I’m wrong,
I give and give but get nothing it return, I hurt, I bleed and still I’m willing to go trough it millions of times and all for one reason the reason that I hope you will one day remember me…
And if I do survive from all the battles that I suffered to win the war then darling I will be so lost and so worn off that non of the above multiplied by two from you will bring me back to be with you.
It’s harder than you think to say goodbye to someone who has became a part of your life. Especially when you haven’t noticed it happening and so this particular farewell is harder than you ever imagined it could be. For all a parting is always sad a awkward one is even more sad but you do what you have to do just get on with things.Something you probably will understand that someone is not lost, they are just lonely and maybe be they are not the only one.
It’s all began with someone lost and someone found. There is a remarkable story indeed
Lost and Found by Oliver Jeffers
Lately I had been doing a great deal of thinking about what I gave up willing in life long time ago. Did I realized that every tale has it’s ending and most of the real life once don’t end up with a happy ending ?
One thing I know for sure, I did it because I simply wanted to, so I did willing gave everything up once upon a time. But soon after I gained so much … I wasn’t a fool in love I was one of the lucky once drunk on the beauty of it. That incomparable feeling of not living but blooming and blossoming at the same time. Once upon a time I was blessed to have my special someone, to be able to hide in his arms away from everything and drift away hearing his heartbeat. I was , I was happy like I had never been before and I was loved back.I hated sleep because my real word was better then my dreams and I finally had him by me the one I always dreamt of. Everything was perfect the way it was like it was a part of play designed just for me.
The though of losing him was a forbidden shadow buried deep, so deep I never thought of it. Even though I should because letter on it took me by surprise.
Why I’m calling all of this a sacrifice, because with a sacrifice you always end up loosing something in order to gain something. You are wondering what did I loose when I was so happy, the truth is at the end I lost not only him I lost myself, my heart, my desire and want for life and I gained the deepest scar a person ever gets in his life , being hurt by LOVE.
Now I spend most of my days recovering and embracing my past and fighting my present so I can get to my better future. But after all I’m truly grateful I gained so much amazing, extraordinary memories, felt my deepest feeling, learned what it really means to love someone and most importantly what sacrifice really gives you.If you are willing to loose for something or someone that mean so much to you, you are sure to gain much more really soon.
And remember If your sacrifice is true, you can only gain but never loose … even in love
We usually use this word without even considering that in grammar is mainly use as a pronoun or used to refer to ANY person in GENERAL but funny how everyone develop a specific and personal meaning to the word ” you ” .And ” you ” takes over someone very special in everyone’s life and once read or mentioned you always know who ” you ” is . It’s not about the fact that this is how we will normally address the person we are talking to , It’s something much more sentimental, personal, private and deep.It’s almost feels like a word can hold a entire new and secret universe known only by ourselves and “you” is all the need to define it.
Interesting how such a simple and so common word is used to represent someone so special to us. “You” holds so much and it can tell so much stories in just three letters you can put a part of who you are and the whole special someone even too.
And from being one of the most impersonal words “you” becomes the most meaningful, special and secret word of all.Amazing isn’t it how much can be held in a three letters word and someone so important can be presented with so less like being veiled in disguise close to the heard but far from the world of others and something so ordinary as a simple common word can become so extraordinary, unique,exceptional and intimate.
To my ” You ! “