Baby…. hey baby where are you,
where are you…. come out, come out wherever you are …….
Because I’m in this stage where this is no longer a game but something vital for the sake of my sanity and my for the thought that I can’t keep up with something feeling so fake
But something inside of me knows that from now on,since you are in hiding again things will start to disappear and soon all the real once will be changed and all of this will remain just a little silly game…
But the thing is,
it does feel quite right to know I don’t need to put up a fight, that there is no tug-of-war.
You simply hid somewhere beyond the reach of my eyes and my hands,
it happened so quickly I completely lost your tracks in this hide and seek game.
And that seeking for you now is something I don’t want to do …. I lost my interest of finding all the small little things that lead to the path of your heart and by picking them up one by one to try finding my place in your mind, to win a bit of affection and a bit of love so that I feel that the feelings I have are mutual to reassure myself that the deceitful feeling that you are gone is a believe of my own.
Now everything is good, nothing is right and nothing is real, everything is made up and it helps me settle down the the hollow feeling I seem to feel.
Now I can’t find you baby it will be okay, it doesn’t matter where you hid, I refuse to spend my life searching for you once again.
Now everything is pure, there is no fear of finding you with others, there is no more hope of trying to make you seem me as I was the only one you you felt no need to find another.
Now everything is easy, now everything will heal and all the scars and all the memories, and all the misery and all the tears will be part of the past never to happen again. Now the ripped bit in my heart can be mend by someone with super glue who truly hates this hide and seek me game …