This took a while

Yes Yes Yessss !!!

Time heals !    They kept on saying wherever I lost the battle in the war with my daemons. Sometimes this felt like a scoring game DAEMONS 3 : 0 Dessy, and like this phase ” It’s ok just bare with it time heals ” became the motto of my second best. I came to hate it as it meant nothing to me and it was like a reminder they are winning once again but it’s ok being a looser it ain’t that bad !!!! You know what now I know how right they were but it was the right amount of time i needed to met HIM

At times like these it feels like there is a master plan that everyone’s following in a perfect order and we just need to be ready to wait for it to unfold.I can’t exactly explain it , it’s one of those things you just embrace without questioning as you know they make perfect sense even though at first they make no sense at all. This is how I came across him………….. and the master plan unfolded. So I let my self drift away without putting too much though in what was going on around me…. this one night so unexpected I knew my life is about to change . I didn’t know how I had no idea but I could feel it. I bet everyone had had this one moment in time you realise that something is about to change, something that has been static for so long, something seeming so elusive and distant and like in this split second you can almost hold every piece of you ,  every piece you lost in life sticks together again …  . This is when I met him I felt whole I felt complete. The first though in my head was …. NOW  IT ALL MAKE SENSE.

All of the mishaps all of those never came to be moments , all of the why me and whens  made perfect sense it wasn’t the right time, it wasn’t the right person, it wasn’t what was put in the master plan… it wasn’t  right

I wish I could lock myself in this moment of divinity where nothing matters, I know it’s selfish but God it felt so good. Like someone knew I need to learn my lesson I need time to think about it, to let my wounds heal my faith to be  restored, my hope to be revolved and my heart to empty for all the hatred that t had harvest over my hurt pride and for all my emotions to be regrown strong enough to bare all the new emotions I was about to gather.

So yes it wasn’t in vein after all all of those ‘TIME WILL HEAL’ actually made perfect sense now, now that time had healed me ……..

The things

Sometimes the thing that we can’t change end up changing us, no matter how small and insignificant they can be. We end up caught in their master plan without even knowing what’s about to happen afterwards.

These “things” take us as down so easily often because we underestimate them or simply take them as granted and in our weakest moments we fall without knowing any better.Or I suppose you can look at this whole thing in a different light, like that we adapt to them simply because we are are not ready to change them or we don’t want to.And instead of victims of a master force we become allies with it.

One of these “things” must be a broken heart. No one likes being hurt but at the point of weakness and lack of  strength to change it we end up adapting to it. Leaving it to take it’s time and heal itself. We learn how to be stronger than before  but we can never restore the previous glory of the past moments now called history. So the “thing” called “love” end up changing us because we can’t change it’s track and turn in our own life and so we chose to be either her victims or  her allies.

Most of these “things” often are uncontrollable by us humans and simply because of this fact they end up changing us instead of us changing them. But despite all of the negative side to it  I must admit I love it all !

  I love changing and growing different it is all part of learning who you really are and finding yourself in the world and trough out your life, gathering  your true self exactly trough these little “things” that make you change,adapt and grow.